A weird yesterday
It is one of those days with too many thoughts to be coherent for the whole day. That even though I have sorted out the progress for the book there was no way I was even going to try and carry on.
The little one's birthday is a big event for me and so many emotions mixed in with those thoughts, far too many to even think about unpacking here. Maybe it might allow me to start letting go, in some ways I hope it does although but I know that she will always be with me no matter what happens. Just like the three older ones who I miss no matter how old they get or what they have going on. I need to be determined to make changes so that I seem them all more often than I have in the last few years.
As for everything else it is all the same, life is always a lack of money. The reason above all others I dislike this part of the country, I find simple things in life fulfilling but there is so much of a disparity between wages and bills here its stupid.
Oh well what can you do?