Awful morning - just letting work swallow me today
It's Friday and mostly sunny. I should be happy. But, I haven't been "happy" in so long that I'm afraid I've forgotten how. I've stressed out my brain and nerves so much in my 40's dealing with other toxic humans that I'm no longer interested in the daily BS we call life. I no longer see the benefit to having a friend or discussing anything with anyone. The more I think about life in general, the more I don't want to be a part of it. I'm trying to immerse myself in work to avoid thinking at all.
It's not working.