Being a mother
Things that I would have found somewhat upsetting before having my baby now can almost seem crippling when I find out.
The one that is stuck in my head today is something I found out weeks ago. But today, it's rattling around up in there, getting louder and louder each time it bounces off my skull.
Back in the early days of modern medicine, they used to operate on babies without anasthetic or pain killers, because they believed babies couldn't process pain.
I can't even imagine how they ever even thought this was a thing.
How many poor little beings were cut open, messed around with and sown back up, in excruciating pain the entire time? How could they hypothesise this?! Pain is basic, its animalistic, I just can't get my head around it.
And I don't know why today is the day I can't get it out of my head after knowing this fact for weeks.