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Day 184

Dreaming about someone I hate

Last 3 nights I've had a dream about someone no longer in my life and someone I hate.

My dad. And I detest calling him that.

The 1st one we were on a road trip going to see a band play, we got to the gig and he was jumping around with his arm around me but I was aware that I hated him.

The 2nd dream he was drunk, had a gun and tried to shoot me 5 times but couldn't hit because he was so drunk.

The 3rd dream (last night) he was still with my mum but was caught cheating, I called him every name under the sun and wanted to smash his face in.

I hope tonight I have a dream about someone else, even Freddy Krueger or Michael Myres would be better.

I hate wasting any of my waking time or energy on him (I get that its ironic I am penning about him) but even to be bothered by him in my sleep is enough already !!

ANYWAY, hope my pen pals have a good Friday and a good weekend.

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  • BlackGirl BlackGirl
    31 months ago

    I hope you dream other thing, but you have to think about at why are having dreams with him. Maybe be an angry in your chest and this isn't good for mental health. Think about forgiving. Do it for you, just for you.
    Be brave.

  • Escape from my head Escape from my head
    31 months ago

    I do not usually think about him. My life is better without him. I cannot forgive him, ever. But I do forget about him.

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  • runcicle runcicle
    31 months ago

    You enjoy your anger, it gives you a purpose - to enforce the correction of a wrong. But correction is not within your power no matter how intense the anger which therefore overloads your emotions, spills over and affects other areas of life.

    Holding anger is like drinking poison and waiting for the other person to die.

    Forgiveness is the only tool available with the power to defeat anger. It's a process, not an event so it's not a 5-minute job but may take many, many years.

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  • Escape from my head Escape from my head
    31 months ago

    My hate will die with him.

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  • runcicle runcicle
    31 months ago

    Ideas and emotions do not cease with physical death. They continue and blight our future existence just as they are doing now.

    Despite your disbelief in what I am saying, it may nag sufficiently for you to wonder.

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