Today my body is tired as if I ran a marathon yesterday. I didn't realize how much tension my body had built up over two years until it was released all at once. My brain won't stop buzzing, and I see flashes of so many possibilities, questions, and ideas all at once. Figuring out our next steps, wondering if this means Honeybun will finally propose any time soon (while simultaneously realizing he needs to pay off some serious debts off first), wanting to plan a celebratory dinner and a deserved vacation, thinking of what we'll do to ring in the New Year with a bang, sad that we won't be celebrating Christmas together (I'll be with family in Louisiana, but he has to stay home to work). None of it will stop, and work is stressful with end-of-the-year insanity.
I'll probably meditate over my lunch break to center my thoughts. Will probably make some lists too, just to get some of this shit out of my head for now so I can focus. Maybe I'll even pray my rosary again with some intentions.
What do you do when suddenly all things are possible? I'm dizzy from it all.