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Day 81

Happy 2019, I hope

2018 has probably been the roughest year of my life. Moved from Seattle to San Diego because the rain was too depressing after 20yrs. Mother had a heart attack. Brother had a heart attack. Was laid off my previous job for the first time ever. The stress was so much for me that I had almost lost my mind. I finally sought mental help through my VA Benefits just two months ago. I have not seen a therapist since 2016. I don't think I'd be alive today had I not met my better half in 2015. It's been so horrific that I didn't want to speak with my parents or brother for an eternity, as their mean behavior towards me being gay peaked.

I realized the morning of Christmas Day how depressing it would be to only have 1/3 of your children contact you. After how badly I've been treated, I actually felt sorry for them and called my parents. The phone call helped me tremendously, but I didn't plan it that way. I made the call short, brief, and after 5-10 minutes said I was ending the call to have dinner.

Ever since, I'm a little less depressed.

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  • Otter Otter
    6 months ago

    It sounds like 2018 was a year with many changes. Some of those changes were for the better though! Sometimes packing up and starting someplace new can make a world of a difference. Honeybun's boyfriend moved across the country to live with us and get away from Seattle. It was for a similar reason: 20-something years of rain dragged down his spirits. Have you explored much of your new home? I've never been to California, but I've always been curious about it. I hear the San Diego zoo is really fun!

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  • SpreadZero SpreadZero
    6 months ago

    The San Diego Zoo is one of the best in the World, as well as Balboa Park and Seaport Village Waterfront all are so beautiful, sunny and relaxing fun. San Diego has amazing light rail transit and freeway system. But, the people are no comparison to Seattle. I miss Seattle PEOPLE so much. Californians are extreme opportunists because it's so expensive to live here; taxes are crazy high. We need to make more friends, but it seems most in California can't afford to have fun. Seattle people are caffeinated and hyper compared to SoCal residents. Most I've met here are lethargic as hell in comparison, but Seattle friends are relaying that people are changing there fast. It's no longer the Seattle I miss.

    Cheers for 2019! Hopefully it'll be great.

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  • Otter Otter
    6 months ago

    I've just realized I said "Honeybun's boyfriend" instead of "Honeybun's uncle" and I am so embarrassed. Haha! Sometimes my brain moves faster than my fingers can type.

    His uncle said the same thing about the people. He misses the friendliness of the people there, but he knows he made the right choice. I just hope we can prepare him for the heat of the Texas summer. He thinks he'll be able to keep walking everywhere, but apparently had fainted from heat exhaustion during a visit last year... it had been the middle of Spring, and it was 85 degrees. We usually reach the 100s pretty easily in Summer, so I'm thinking of buying him his first pair of shorts and flipflops. Haha!

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