I just don’t want
I read a blurb in a magazine whilst getting my toes done about dating apps and it described one which utilizes one’s friends to help find you dates. They write your bio and cull the herd for you. I mentioned it to my bff today mostly joking because I needed to change the subject of her picking out shit for her wedding which just reminds me I’m going to die alone surrounded by 137 dogs.
Anyways, it got me thinking about actually dating again and the bottom line is I don’t want to. The thought of meeting men and enduring the get to know you chit chats and lousy awkward first dates is utterly repellent to me.
I met my love by accident and fell for him without realizing it. Going on a quest for that feeling just doesn’t make sense and feels like a complete betrayal of what love is supposed to be. It doesn’t matter that he gave up on me, it doesn’t matter that he’s probably balls-deep in someone else at this very moment... you can’t go looking for that feeling.
They say you find love when you aren’t looking. So why log on and look?