it's going to take a while to climb out....
or maybe, climb away, from this rampant and irredeemable pain I feel from my right hip to my toes.
Today I went to a therapeutic yoga class. I followed all the exercises and stretched. It was painful, but there were some spots I almost forgot how much pain there was shooting through my body.
I emerged after an hour feeling like I had done something, among all the other things I'm trying, to mitigate and maybe even rid myself of this pain.
But this pain is resilient; it seems to be immune to anything I try on it. Last night a friend gave me CBD oil laced with THC. I spread it all over, but nothing happened.
So I realize this: it's going to be a long haul. It won't take a week, or a month. It may be the rest of my life.
So I have to somehow find peace and meaning from this, which is going to be long and complicated. I see none of it ahead; it's going to be the same pain, day by day, in and out.
My choice is to either wait it out, or just live with it. There doesn't seem any other choice.