I logged on to the dating site I’ve used in the past. I typically log on every couple of years to peruse and rapidly remember why I’m still single... what’s out there in my area is not inspiring. But this time there were two men who intrigued me so I dropped the bucks for a one-month subscription and sent the likes. Now I wait. I’m not optimistic.
My profile is straightforward, I included my education. I thought about leaving it out because men tend to be intimidated by it but I figure if a guy can’t deal with it it’s better to know from the start.
I’m sure my friends would tell me to put myself out there more and send messages and all that. But the thing is, I’m sick of being the “alpha” in my relationships. I want a man with balls bigger than mine for a change. I want a man who takes the lead and has some initiative.
Maybe I’m short-changing myself but I don’t want to go through the pain of getting attached to another man who can’t hack it.
I know I’m a lot to handle but that’s who I am.