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Day 504

Nearing freedom.... son about to turn 21...

My son, my youngest, my only son, will be turning 21 on Thursday. I remember the drama that went into having him, the genetic tests that said he might have some kind of slight issue, his mother's desire to abort him and my fight to keep him. It tore us apart, and while we split apart for other reasons, it's still something that pushed me away from her.

So here he is, almost 21, and I told him about my intentions tonight, that when I become incapacitated, he and his sisters should feel free and without guilt to tie me down, and put me wherever they think I belong. I trust them completely.

I also informed him of my desire to do as many drugs as possible when I get old (not that I didn't use them in my youth, or right now even.) I mentioned pot, LSD and heroin.

"Why not DMT?" he asked.

"DMT? What is that?"

"Oh, it's a hard core psychedelic. I vaped it a few weeks back and it's pretty cool."

"Okay, I'll take that as well..."

"And what about psilocybin"

"You mean 'shrooms?'

"Yeah...."

"Oh, definitely, but only if my stomach can handle it."

I was comforted knowing my kids will be responsible.

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  • Bettedavis Bettedavis
    3 months ago

    What will drugs fetch in your old age?

  • RavDiablo RavDiablo
    3 months ago

    Hopefully, it will take my wilting brain and give it a jump start, so that I can do more than sit and watch the television every day...

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  • Bettedavis Bettedavis
    3 months ago

    You know that it will happen. T.V and books will become your best friends
    I've never took drugs so do not know what effect they will have on my old brain.... You got me thinking now , maybe a trip to Amsterdam...

  • RavDiablo RavDiablo
    3 months ago

    I'm hoping my friends will remain my best friends, and that I'll make more along the way.... I don't want to grow old alone.

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  • Bettedavis Bettedavis
    3 months ago

    None of us do Rav
    But it is inevitable
    We are born alone, we did alone

  • Bettedavis Bettedavis
    3 months ago

    Die

  • George Smith George Smith
    3 months ago

    Rav.... I'm not so sure about all this: being tied down and fed a load of drugs... you're joking, right? Having been through this old age thing with my poor mum I see how thoughts and feelings about life can change in a short space of time and what every old person really needs is love and respect and a sense of dignity, none of which you are allowing yourself if you take the route you suggest. Also, if the drugs kill you, as they might well, there is the small issue of murder.... hmmmm. I think growing old and what is to be done is far from simple. I don't want to grow old alone either... but I don't want to be in a home either. It's scary. Let's just hope when we get there we can manage to sort ourselves out so that the sting is taken out of it.

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  • RavDiablo RavDiablo
    3 months ago

    I was referring to being "tied down" metaphorically - so many children fear of doing what is right for their parents because they know their parents will protest, just like Ulysses did strapped to the mast of his ship while passing by the island of Sirens. His men obeyed him and saved him from a terrible fate. I want my kids to feel free to give me the best care, no matter how much I protest, because I know that I will most likely be cognitively impaired. As for the drugs, there is no such thing as an overdose from LSD, DMT or other hallucinogens. I'm not asking for heroin (although if I'm in a lot of pain, I'm hoping they can manage that.) But there's a lot of research going on that shows that LSD can give people nearing the end of their lives lots of insights.... so bring it on, baby!

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