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Day 95

No justice

I’ve been away a while, trying to focus on the now and let go of the past. For the most part it’s going well. The days I spiral into grief are fewer and farther between. The times I peek at his social media are fewer and farther between. I still look, but I think it’s become more habit and curiosity than desire to connect.

I looked today and there’s some new pictures. He looks better and better, more like himself. His stature, his smile is getting better. In one you can see a glint that looks like a ring on his left hand. I doubt it means anything but it still gave me pause.

I did everything right. I loved him completely, I stood by him through the worst event I could imagine, I endured his mother hating me, the distance, the uncertainty. I did everything right and I got dumped and I’m alone. He lied and cheated and betrayed me and he has someone.

I’m not hurting because I want him anymore, I’m way past that. He’s a douche and doesn’t deserve me. But I’m hurting because of the injustice in the whole thing.

I deserve love, he doesn’t.

Show Comments (3)

  • RavDiablo RavDiablo
    5 months ago

    I am continually astonished by the fact that people will "love" others based on their wealth or stature, rather than their character.

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  • miranda_b miranda_b
    5 months ago

    This guy has no character, but also no wealth or stature. His accident ruined his hands so he can’t play guitar anymore, his voice and timing are off so he can’t sing anymore. He certainly can’t go back to the job he has before he became a musician full time. He has absolutely nothing to offer a woman except himself. Considering he was both “damaged” and “taken” when they started hanging out I don’t know why she got involved. They knew each other growing up so maybe she saw him as the one who got away as this was her chance. They deserve each other.

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  • RavDiablo RavDiablo
    5 months ago

    Yeah, or she's living in some romantic past - my sister did that: it didn't end well....

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