No one to talk to anymore
Today is the anniversary of our first date, our first kiss. Not only am I 100% sure he doesn’t know that because his memory of me is shot (assuming he’d be the sentimental type of it wasn’t), but I’m 99% sure he doesn’t give a shit.
I’m not going to do anything about it. I’m not going to text him. He’s made it clear he’s done.
But I’m going to be sad.
The thing that gets me is that I can’t share that with any of my friends. They’re over it. They think I deserve better so I should just move on and shouldn’t care. They don’t get that to get past the pain and anger I have to actually feel it. If I hold it in and ignore it it will stay with me forevermore. The only person who gets that is my therapist.
Not being able to share your pain with the people who you rely on makes it all the harder. It makes the loneliness that much worse.