Search for Meaning
I've found my meaning and purpose.
To help teens out there who are going through the same struggles that I have gone through, coming from a dysfunctional family..
with an absentee/abusive father... overly submissive mother who deals with problems by hiding in her room for hours or days at a time.. and dealing with brothers and sisters who've learned to live life by looking for things to fill that hole left by what's supposed to be a "family"
Or so I thought.
I started studying for masters last year, majoring in Guidance and Counseling.
Then got into a depressive episode early this year on my second semester. And I stopped going to uni.
I feel like I just lost my purpose again.
Like, what am I really supposed to do with my life?
I want to give back. I want to help others.
It seems like I've been dealing with myself too much these past months. Trying to know what's wrong with me.
I HAVE to look within, to prepare myself for everything that happens around me. To know how to deal. To handle things.
I don't even have the energy to go volunteering now.