Therapy is my only solution
I wake angry every morning. My first thought of every day is, "I wish I could sleep until I'm dead." The anger turns to silent crying by the time I'm in the shower, and that's on a good day. Most days I want to punch a hole in the wall seconds after waking. Some mornings I'm so depressed that I stare at the mirror in the bathroom wondering how I'm alive.
I was such a beautiful, social butterfly just years ago; loved by all. It started with a little bit of hatred here and there, and then the news media filled with hate. Soon, co-workers became toxic, and this resulted in the entire office wanting nothing to do with each other. I won't even have lunch with anyone anymore. I do not talk about anything personal anymore. I created a fake Facebook page for co-workers. I want nothing to do with the lot. People are mean, selfish and ignorant 200% of the time now.
I use to glance at strangers curiously wondering how others lived their lives. In the past, I was open-minded and loving enough to make friends with strangers easily. Now, I don't even turn my head.