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Day 35

Under my skin still

The kids and I did something awesome today with one of my friends and a big group from her work. An outdoor adventure to a place that’s close to home but we’ve never been. It was great to get out, see new things, take great pictures, just explore. But the whole time I kept having these thoughts about sharing it with him. A beautiful vista with an awesome view and I’m thinking he would love this I need to bring him sometime, oh wait, never mind. I pick up a beautiful shell and think I need to send this to him, oh wait, never mind. All forking day.

He became a part of me. Loving him is part of who I am now. And it sucks. Day 20 with no communication. Never got a response to my thank you message. I posted pictures from the workshop including one of me with my amazing present and tagged him, a public thank you for contributing to the joy of the weekend, and still no contact.

I don’t know why I keep expecting to hear from him. I don’t think I would want him back anyways so why do I care?

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  • RavDiablo RavDiablo
    4 months ago

    I know the feeling - it will dissipate eventually, although it will come back from time to time. Now that I am with someone new, I never look back....

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  • miranda_b miranda_b
    4 months ago

    That requires meeting someone new... ugh!

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  • Otter Otter
    4 months ago

    It will happen in due time, miranda_b. I've experienced that feeling before as well, and it took me beating the crap out of a punching bag daily (I am no boxer, but it felt great) and some supportive friends, but it went away. It will fade with time, and we're all here to hold you up in the meanwhile. :)

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  • miranda_b miranda_b
    4 months ago

    Thank you Otter :)

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