What is going on with me?
The morning after the guys went out, Honeybun and I woke up at dawn to start breakfast. Bear was snoring peacefully on the couch, and we'd giggle every time he'd let out a particularly loud snore. We threw together a spread of bacon, fried eggs, toast, condiments, and a big pot of coffee. Finally Bear began to stir, and we all ate together. I knew they planned to hang out all day, so I left after breakfast to go to my parents and came back around 6 PM. The guys had gone to Bear's apartment to hang out, and I didn't know when they'd be back. I don't know what happened - but sometime during my drive home from my parents I started to feel bothered. Anxiety and depression hit me like a rock to the head out of nowhere. I got too anxious and was short with Honeybun over text. He refused to answer his phone, which doubled the depression/anxiety. He was understandably pissed at me when he got home last night, telling me he can't handle his brother and I at the same time. He couldn't focus on Bear like he needed to. I need to calm down.