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Day 88

What was it all for

I did everything right. I loved deeply and unconditionally. I stood by him through unimaginable tragedy. I stood up for him when he couldn’t stand up for himself. I forgave his questionable fidelity and tried to be understanding of his muddled memory and mental state. I did everything for him. And now I’m forgotten.

The new one?whom he reportedly started spending time with before breaking up with me, is now getting all the adoration and the two of them are the darlings of the community. I know it all looks like sunshine and roses but it can’t be easy, I hope she doesn’t regret taking him on, I hope he manages to not cheat on her because no one deserves that heartbreak. I don’t blame her for taking him away from me or anything, that was all him. But where was she when he was fighting for his life in that hospital? Where was she when he was learning how to walk and needing help feeding himself and showering?

I just resent how unfair it all is. I treated him right, I was loyal and supportive, and now I’m alone and lonely.

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  • RavDiablo RavDiablo
    7 months ago

    That sucks - you invested so much in this guy and he treated you badly. In some world (maybe another one), he'll learn his lesson....

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  • miranda_b miranda_b
    7 months ago

    Perhaps, they say things happen for a reason. He’ll maybe someday realize what his behavior cost him and learn from it. But what good does that do me? I’m not saying I should get some gold star for being the perfect girlfriend or anything, but I think I’ve earned a little happiness with all I’ve been through.

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  • RavDiablo RavDiablo
    7 months ago

    I feel for you Miranda, because I've been there (several times.) I'd like to think "it's for a reason," (that's called 'teleological,' btw), but at this point, I know it's all random. It's a part of our lives, and we can either dwell upon it and let us limit ourselves, or push past it, perhaps even forget it, and if there's little something to be learned in the process, accept it with gratitude....

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