When your independence is healthier than visiting family
Most of my life I was happy-go-lucky, in fact more-so than anyone I know. I was the life of the party; always humorous, comical and borderline hilarious to be around. Numerous friends love my sense of humor and ability to make everything fun. But, when you start approaching the age where you SHOULD have grandchildren, you begin wishing you had a closer relationship with your blood family. The loneliness isn't killing me, because I've been alone all my life; always had thousands of miles between my family and I. I truly wish I spent Thanksgiving, Easter, Christmas, etc with family, but I haven't for most of my life. The last time I spent Thanksgiving with my parents was over 15 years ago. It all makes me sad & depressed, but not enough to visit them again. I can't take having my feelings hurt anymore.