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Day 38

Why Do I Feel Guilt??

I have been taking medication for Hypothyroidism for 20-something years. Without it, my organs and brain slow down. Tuesday I placed a refill with my pharmacy for next-day-delivery. By Friday I still hadn't received them and called my apartment-complex's office. They said they hadn't received them.

Today, Day 3 of no meds. I called the pharmacy - they have confirmation that my apartment-office manager signed for my meds on Wednesday... But they said they didn't have them when I called Friday? I call my apartment-office. I call a dozen times before someone answers. "Oh, it was just delivered now." No, I tell her. No, I have proof it was delivered almost 6 days ago. The panic and anger are prominent in my voice. She calmly tells me to come pick them up now, and I tell her I can't because I'm at work until after their office closes.

I call Honeybun and ask him to pick them up after work. He's angrier than I am and calls them in rage. They say they'll have them ready for him to pick up.

Why do I feel like I should apologize to the office for Honeybun's and my attitude? These meds keep me functioning.

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  • SpreadZero SpreadZero
    3 months ago

    Why would you apologize?! The apartment office LIED TO YOU. They ignored your needs and replied with nothing but ill concern and laziness.

    Give 'em hell. Well deserved.

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  • Otter Otter
    3 months ago

    I guess because I'm not usually so rude and loud at people, and that's what makes me feel guilty. I know though that I shouldn't feel this way, and that there is nothing to apologize for since this was such a serious matter to me. Honeybun picked them up from the office yesterday, and I took a pill last night and this morning. I still feel like I'm in a haze, as it takes a few days for it to build back up in my system, but at least I won't get worse than I am now.

    Last night it felt like I had to pull every thought out of a sludgy swamp, and it had me in tears. Yet, I still know I'll feel embarrassed the next time I have to go into that office.

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  • SpreadZero SpreadZero
    3 months ago

    Ironically, my next appointment is 10 days from now, and I only have 8 days worth of pills left. I can relate. I will be taking (2) instead of (3) until the appointment just to make it that far. And, this small adjustment will increase my anxiety.

    But, you and I will survive! Best wishes to you xo

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