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Day 38


He called. We talked, carefully at first, then open and honestly for a long time.

He’s different. Moreso than I first thought. He admitted to a lot, and took responsibility for everything. He admitted that when we were getting to know each other he was extra charming, trying to impress. I appreciate that he thought I was worth the effort of such pursuit but I’d have preferred honesty. He’s stopped pretending, and he’s very different. He’s found god which is weird,and it’s like talking to a stranger sometimes.

He says he remembers me but I don’t think so. Any specifics I ask about and he says he doesn’t remember. Things that happened on our dates, phrases or emoji that acquired meaning, all foreign to him. He called me his girlfriend because I was the best that showed up, and he hoped it would work out.

It didn’t.

I asked if he had been faithful, if I was still the last, and he admitted he and an “old friend” did the deed sometime since New Years, a mutually meaningless fling. He said “I’ve moved on.”

He wants to start fresh and be friends. I don’t know if I can, or want to.

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  • RavDiablo RavDiablo
    8 months ago

    Everybody is extra charming, when they first get to know one another. But what counts is what happens after the "honeymoon," the digging in and "going long." This didn't, so you get to move on.... and yes, the hurt is terrible, yet where would we be if we never risked anything?

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