Fighting the urge to lash out
His mom makes these info graphic type collages for every occasion... and last night it was the new gf’s birthday collage... all the pics of them all lovey-dovey at the concert with the caption “love is in the air” with lots of hearts and flowers. Barf.
She hated me. She’s a trump thumper I’m a liberal, she’s religious I’m an atheist, she uses her son I stood up for him, she pushes him around I encouraged him to stand up for himself, on and on. She apparently loves this one.
When he broke up with me he said “I think I just need something easier” right before giving me the I’m not good enough for you speech.
While I’ve reconciled myself with the end of the relationship and know I don’t want him back (the family drama is just one more reason), but I’m still stung by him moving on.
The anger is what’s left this morning... I want to text him something awful, say something about hoping he’s happier with his something easier instead of something deep and real, anything to hurt him. It’s childish but I’m in pain and I want him to be too.