If we're going to afford the mortgage were looking at, I need to go back to work when this baby is 6/7 months. It's heartbreaking. I wish I could have had the year off, but the house is too good of an opportunity to miss. It's the house right next door to my mam and dad.
I wish the world wasn't so messed up, that we could still afford to live on one wage. I'd love to be a stay at home mam. I wish it was still okay for a woman to leave her job to raise the kids. It's honestly a full time job. I don't know how anyone goes back to work and raises kids.
I know it's just because this boy was premature, therefore I've had a much longer newborn phase, but I'm terrified he's going to be one of those babies who never goes any longer than 2/3 hours for a feed. I'm never going to get my time back, as in me time. I don't understand how it's going to work, going back to work. I'll be a complete zombie. It's just inconceivable at the moment.