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Day 40

Covid blues

So yesterday there was a panic when my dad (81 w/ COPD) announced he couldn't breathe properly then read the papers & went back to sleep, spent all afternoon once again preparing to see if he'll survive the week before he got up announced he was feeling better and asked whats for dinner.
He's still a bit wheezy but nothing special, over the last two years he's had a stroke/brain haemorrhage, frequent chest infections & is heading for dementia and each time he might die, so it seems every 6 months I'm preparing to lose him, starting to grieve, and then he's healthy again.
And of course being in lockdown have no outlet for relaxation or destressing, just being in the same house with someone who, if he catches this, has a high risk of dying but doesn't seem to be worried about it.
Because I'm his full time carer lost contact with friends, so support network, what little their was, is gone, no one to talk to, just me and my cat.

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  • George Smith George Smith
    6 days ago

    You are amazing. I've just read your last four posts. A silent sufferer. I'm so sad to read how things have been for you. I would certainly have gone to the police about the theft at work. And that you are looking after your Dad who is in such a bad way. Keep writing, reading, exercising. Does your faith help you?

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  • runcicle runcicle
    6 days ago

    If he's not worried then don't start worrying for him.

    Even if he is worried then if you worry that won't help you and it certainly won't help him.

    So if you worry then it's nothing to do with him but your own fear of death.

    Did you do anything further about that theft a few years ago?

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  • George Smith George Smith
    6 days ago

    Runcicle, who are you talking to and who has mentioned the word worry?

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  • runcicle runcicle
    6 days ago

    Line eleven of Kevin's post.

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  • George Smith George Smith
    6 days ago

    I think you and I might make Kevin laugh now which would be a good thing! :) ... at no point does Kevin say he is worried, just naturally sad about his Dad.

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