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Day 417

Doubting myself

As you'll know from reading my journals, I'm going through a a separation and divorce. It's generally been going as you'd expect. Good bits, bad bits etc. We've agreed that I will have majority custody and my estranged wife will see them and have them staying over one certain days. A turn around from the usual, but there we go.

Had a long call with my estranged wife last night. I'm left wondering certain things.

If I had handled things differently the first time she was in a psychiatric hospital, how would things have turned out? Did my response to her illness cause things to worsen with her, or did her worsening lead to my response? It seems to me that it was a chicken/egg situation.

I know that I made mistakes and that she made mistakes as well. Were we doomed after that first stay in hospital?

She said a few times during our marriage that I should be tested for Aspergers, as I'm not good with emotions in conversations, I don't understand meanings, tone etc. and I take things very literally. She mentioned that again last night.

Is she trying to get at me, or is there something in what she says?


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  • Rodeo Rodeo
    14 months ago

    Be strong. If you read your own journal you will see how well and hiw hard you have worked for this relationship. Its just a tool you estrangled wife uses against you. All ex partners use this mind manipulation. It will soon be dawn xx

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  • Plume de nom Plume de nom
    14 months ago

    Thank you, Rodeo. Good to hear from you again. It's been a while. This has really knocked my confidence. Still feeling the effects today and was really grouchy and stressed last night with the kids. See more in today's entry.

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  • Rodeo Rodeo
    14 months ago

    Hang in there. I promise you, after the darkness, comes light xx

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