Falling back into habit
I have this bad habit of spending as much of my free time with my partners as I physically can. Usually it leads to me feeling like I have no downtime, no time for me.
Recognising again that these patterns are repeating with my best-friend-boyfriend. When he's working, I'm working. When he's home, we're usually on Skype until it's time for bed.
Although unlike the EX-fiance, he doesn't expect or ask me to keep skype on all night.
So I find myself walking down old paths, using it as a crutch to fill the empty silence. But unlike those before, I feel at peace with it. Maybe I'm living for those ever-so-brief moments where I can actually feel something? For those snapshots of emotion that I'm usually not blessed with.
The bi-polar has stabilised for now, I'm waiting for the next swing towards mania. Enjoying the moment before it all falls apart