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Day 21

I cant believe I'm in this place again??

Sigh....some days I swear I ####### hate myself and the way I Am. I hate being so desperate for love that I involve myself with people who have no intentions of loving me. This time I really thought he was going to be different. He seemed like he cared about me. He never pressured me for sex...listened to all my problems...gave me good advice, and basically made me feel okay about everything...I got used to having someone that I could talk to...and be myself around. Everything was fine...
Then all of the sudden...he stopped calling....I reached out to him and he said his schedule changed...but I knew that wasn't the only thing that changed...I felt the disconnect...So once again...I'm here in this lonely place...again...I do not no how I got here...I feel alone and more broken hearted than ever....I'm starting to realize that I will probably always be alone...I mean if my dad and step-dad didn't want me....why would anyone else....
I cant believe I'm all alone again...with no one to love me...listen to me....protect me...I feel used...I no he loved me...I just do not understand why he stopped talking to me. If any guys ready this...please tell me why men run....

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  • lucy lou lucy lou
    84 months ago

    Well, im not a man,but i have certainly been in the position that you are in.

    Do me a favour, dont let him and his behaviour convince you that you will always be alone,because you wont. There are decent men with good morals out there and you will meet one.

    Who knows why they just disconnect the way they do. I preferably like to think that they have been taken by aliens or something. But thats his issue, its not yours,so dont give yourself a hard time. Im sending you a hug x

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  • onefinemess onefinemess
    84 months ago

    Thank you so much! I appreciate your kind words. I'm so down about this. After reading you comment I feel better though...Thank you so much!

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  • torch torch
    84 months ago

    Men and women are two different species and they are many different types of men and to make things even more complicated men change again with time and life experiences. You need to live with a partner for a long time before you know how they tick. Your man has changed, he's not the person he was and you probably wouldn't want the person he became anyway. xxx

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  • onefinemess onefinemess
    84 months ago

    So true...Its just a hard pill to swallow sometimes...and I'm the type of person that will be tortured by trying to figure out what happened and what I did wrong.

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  • Allchange Allchange
    67 months ago

    You can analyse yourself, him and the relationship but it won't bring answers and you will go round in circles getting nowhere and using your time and energy to no avail. He has his own issues no doubt. Even if he gave you answers how would you know it was an honest response? Grieve the losses, feel the feelings and set yourself some positive goals so you are looking to the future, not back. Big hug.

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