I don't know what to do with a baby
He's all of a sudden found us. He's looking at faces intently, he's following us around the room, and today was momentous. I got my first smile. And then my second close after. Very different from windy smiles, very much interacting with me, very much a smile for me. It was divine.
I went to bed as I normally do in the early evening, leaving the wee man with my husband and a bottle of expressed milk he's allowed to drink as much or a little as he wants to. Husband has the TV on with the baby on the crook of his arm. Baby is looking up adoringly at him, but he doesn't know because he's watching television.
I feel like this is wrong. But it's not like I haven't done it too, I'm just better at watching and playing with baby. I feel like when he is awake, we should be focused on him. But oh my god, we get so little time to ourselves, maybe I should just he happy he's content to sit whilst we watch something. I'm just so unsure of everything we do and say.