I feel like a complete fraud. I cannot tell my friends what is going on with my marriage cause they are all in some way connected to him as well. Either he's friends with their partners or they r his friends too. I feel like I have this massive secret and that everything and all my other relationships are tarnished by it. I don't feel joy in the same way anymore. It's all tainted by worry and fear and hiding this massive secret that if it comes out. I'm so scared that it'll destroy me. The thing is I love my kids and don't want them hurt. I don't want me to be hurt either. But I've got a sneaking suspicion that my husband is actually a
grade A Fuckwit and that he's capable of really making a fool of me. I so need someone to talk to about this. I actually think I will explode. Especially now that he's talking about moving away from where we live to get this 'great job' for him. Never mind my ####### career eh? And do I really want to leave my family and friends? No I don't. Can I tell him?