Do you ever feel like you don’t matter? I don’t mean on a grand scale, like changing the world or anything, just in normal everyday life. I’m almost certain that unless I had something to give or do for someone I could quite literally walk through the world without ever being noticed. I know it’s my fault, I’ve been here before. I give too much away for nothing and then wonder why people aren’t bothere. It’s because they just expect me to be there, to help, to give something over. In other words I don’t require anything from them to still be a decent enough person. My problem is I expect people to be that way too and not everyone is, at least no one I know. It’s always me that picks up the phone, that comprises, that doesn’t scream when something doesn’t go my way. I can’t take it anymore.
I want to be able to exist without always being nice to a fault, always coming off worse for people that would step on my neck whenever I put it out for them. I admit defeat.