Switched to taking anti-depressants at night instead of mornings.
What a change! Since I started taking Pristiq, the first 3-4hrs after I take the medication I'm as close to 100% suicidal as one can be. For over two weeks now it's been practically impossible for me to live each morning and the most depressing period of my life. Who knew medications for improving your mood would so quickly make you want to shoot yourself in the head? What a perfectly American solution.
Solution: taking pills at bedtime. Surprise: Doctor not having the knowledge of this information. I now show up to work feeling happier again. Things are closer to the normal I experienced before "my family pushed me over the edge" two summers ago...