The Universe Can Eff Off
The musician is gone. Not gone from my life but gone gone. I spent four days holding his hand in the ICU after a car accident and he will never wake up. What his family will do remains to be seen, but what made him him is dead.
He and I had both been through so much pain and sadness in our lives and were both so afraid to trust and love again. We had just started to, and look forward to our future. Then this happened.
People say things happen for a reason and there’s a plan, that we just don’t understand it. But there’s no way this was meant to be. No way that we were supposed to find happiness and have it ripped away from us so soon.
I don’t think I will ever take the risk to love again. It’s not worth it.