Today I wrote
A suicide note to my wife and son.
I typed it whilst sitting at my desk work, my intention was to type the letters, just get up from my desand drive home to get my insulin pens, then drive to a secluded spot in woods and inject an overdose and die.
I felt so tormented by the thoughts in my head.
It all started by a text from my bank to say that we have gone over our overdraft (again) so money for the rest of the week. That on top of all the stuff that had been happening just totally floored me.
I acractua felt a little pressure lift when writing the letters.
I came home and told my wife what I had done and how low I felt.
I am making a doctor's appt tomorrow to hopefully get some help.