Why I Disappeared? It's not just good times....
So, somebody actually remembers the days from long past (3 years ago) when I started posting on Pencourage, and yes, I did disappear.
So why? Was I in a continual state of bliss?
The reality is that through some bizarre set of circumstances, Charmante found this diary, and boy, did it piss her off. What I don't understand is this: I wrote all sorts of wonderful things about her and just because there were a few posts about my toking and wanking habits, she clobbered me over the head.
So I apologized and apologized, but she never forgave me. Whenever she was in a mood to start a fight, she would bring up the journal, even when I stopped posting in it 6 months, even a year afterwards. I told her I was sorry it hurt her, but no amount of apologizing would result in unconditional forgiveness. Whenever she felt angry or insecure, she would bring up this diary, and even though I deleted many entries that upset her and only left in the nice ones about her, she continued to stab me with it over and over again.
And I couldn't forgive her for never forgiving me, although I would if she had.