So I saw an email saying to check out my journal. I had totally forgot I used to write on this. The last post was 2013.
In 2013 I had been with my partner for 3 years. I was struggling highly with depression and anxiety. He made it no better by constantly getting us into debt and never contributing to our life or expenses. Well it's now 2018 and my god, reading back through these old posts made me feel.... happy.
Back then I never thought I would feel normal again. However now I feel great. I finally finished the relationship I was in, ok it took me 3 more years but still and as soon as I did it felt like a weight was lifted.
I've not had a panic attack for the last 18 months. I go to resteraunts and eat like a normal person. I laugh, I dance, I sing again. I am a new me.
I appreciate things I never did and I changed the way I think. Don't get me wrong I will never be 100% I'll always have moments, but if I felt like this forever I know I would be happy.