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Day 39

You Can't Help Me, But I Feel Better Asking

I could use a little help today.
That's how I feel. But realistically it's up to me.

Several years ago I was diagnosed with premenstrual dysphoric disorder. Basically it's PMS on crack.

Episodes plunge me suddenly into feelings of utter hopelessness, and at its worst suicidal ideation, lasting 1-2 days.

Thankfully, I haven't done anything about the latter for years, nor have I have ever done anything serious about it. Once though.... well, when I graduated with my BFA, I had to wear loads of bangles on my wrists to cover up the fresh, red welts.

I can manage it much better now, and I know what it is (back then, I had no idea) and I just try to ride it out.
I talk to my mom about it. It's hard to discuss with people though, because I don't know why I'm telling them. I mean, if I start crying in front of them then it's just fair, but otherwise, it feels like burdening them.

No birth control managed it until this one I began a few months ago. Ran out, and been on an old one all month.
A week left til I get back on the good stuff...

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  • Salt Lick Salt Lick
    87 months ago

    Just writing this has made me feel better. It's been going for about 18 hours now, almost through :)

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  • Anonymous Anonymous
    87 months ago

    Glad even simply writing that made you feel better. I wish I could give you the ''It's all going to be fine'' speech but what the hell do I know? ;-) I am just glad this forum gives you somewhere to offload. Much love xx

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  • Salt Lick Salt Lick
    87 months ago

    Thanks, yeh, it's nice to be able to just get it off my chest without feeling like I'm putting anyone in an uncomfortable position.

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  • Anonymous Anonymous
    87 months ago

    Xxx

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  • newmom newmom
    87 months ago

    This honestly sounds just like me around that time of the month. I pretty much become a full on basket case and I can barely keep it together. What birth control are you on? I just got an IUD yesterday.

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  • Salt Lick Salt Lick
    87 months ago

    Femodene (I'm in denial about the name). But I've tried....Yaz (also hate the name) Qlaira, Cerazette, the Nuva Ring (after using that for several years I found out that some researchers think it can make the symptoms worse--incidentally that's what I was taking when I erm...graduated with my BFA).

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